How It Feels to Float

Posted on 13 November 2017 by Helena Fox

Biz knows how to float She has her people, her posse, her mom and the twins She has Grace And she has her dad, who tells her about the little kid she was, who loves her so hard, and who shouldn t be here but is So Biz doesn t tell anyone anything Not about her dark, runaway thoughts, not about kissing Grace or noticing Jasper, the new boy And she doesn t tell anyone about her dad Because her dad died when she was six And Biz knows how to float, right there on the surface normal okay regular fine.But after what happens on the beach first in the ocean, and then in the sand the tethers that hold Biz steady come undone Dad disappears, and with him, all comfort It might be easier, better, sweeter to float all the way away Or maybe stay a little longer, find her father, bring him back to her Or maybe maybe maybe maybe there s a third way Biz just can t see yet. Free Read How It Feels to Float author Helena Fox For Kindle ePUB or eBook – kino-fada.fr A heart is a mystery and not a mystery It hides under ribs, pumping blood You can pull it out, hold it in your hand Squeeze It wants what it wants It can be made of gold, glass, stone It can stop anytimeThis is the type of book that gives you a tangible feeling of pain, making you feel empty like there s nospace left for you to process the emotions you are currently feeling Reading this book made me feel like I was being pinned to a wall to witness the events the main characterA heart is a mystery and not a mystery It hides under ribs, pumping blood You can pull it out, hold it in your hand Squeeze It wants what it wants It can be made of gold, glass, stone It can stop anytimeThis is the type of book that gives you a tangible feeling of pain, making you feel empty like there s nospace left for you to process the emotions you are currently feeling Reading this book made me feel like I was being pinned to a wall to witness the events the main character was feeling, seeing her struggle and not getting the answers she needed, as if reading about them was not enough I feel like I have found a new favorite, but it is the type that can t be read again, as the anguish and pain experienced is not something I want to experience again But even then, reading this allowed me to think differently, and accept that everything will be okay, even if I don t believe it and even if no one else believes it Helena Fox ...4.5 starsLife is terrible and beautiful, isn t it It s the best worst at the exact same time, all possibilities at once I absolutely adored this book and read it at the perfect time for me This is a powerful YA contemporary that deals with mental illness, sexuality, grief, family, friendship and .There is so much to love about this book 1 The mental illness rep This is one of the most authentic portrayals of mental illness I have ever read this is own voices for the mental illness re 4.5 starsLife is terrible and beauti...4.5 emotionally wrought stars for this book that completely broke my heartHow It Feels to Floatwas beautifully written and I was completely taken in by Biz Oh, how I wanted to pull her out of the pages and just hug her I loved the relationships Biz built with Jasper and Sylvia Not at all what you d expect, but simply perfect ...There s so much love to give this harrowing, yet hopeful, novel It s the kind that absolutely stays with you, long after you turn the final page It s about grief and loss and disassociation It s about friends who stick by you, and friends who leave both things that made and broke my heart to read Biz is the kind of character who feels things so deeply and wholly, and she s never gotten over her dad leaving She sometimes sees him, sitting on the end of her bed, reminiscing about her bab There s so much love to give this harrowing, yet hopeful, novel It s the kind that absolutely stays with you, long after you turn the final page It s about grief and loss and disassociation It s about friends who stick by you, and friends who leave both things that made and broke my heart to read Biz is the kind of character who feels things so deeply and wholly, and she s never gotten over her dad leaving She sometimes sees him, sitting on the end of her bed, reminiscing about her babyhood And she wants him, but she also doesn t want to feel like she s losing the plot like this Then she kisses her best friend Grace which turns into an awkward disaster and a boy pulls her out of the ocean and her life beings to unravel and she can t catch the threads.Mental illness rep is so important in YA ...I really loved the first half of this, but the second half honestly felt like a completely different book Blah.TW death of a parent, depression, sexual assaultFox s poetic writing is impressive and effectively renders the wry first person voice of Biz, a teenager struggling with mental illness, questioning her sexuality, and grappling with the death of a beloved family member A touching story of grief and an unflinching portrayal of inter generational mental illness At times, How It Feels to Float is a slow burn with little momentum, but Fox s dazzling linguistic style keeps the pages turning We stare into the fire It makes shapes for us to see P Fox s poetic writing is impressive and effectively renders the wry first person voice of Biz, a teenager struggling with mental illness, questioning her sexuality, and grappling with the death of a beloved family member A touching story of grief and an unflinching portrayal of inter generational mental illness At times, How It Feels to Float is a slow burn with little momentum, but Fox s dazzling linguistic style keeps the pages turning We stare into the fire It makes shapes for us to see Part of me detaches Steps into the fire Lifts with the flames Looks down at the boy and the girl They seem happy Are you happy, Biz Am I Am I who am I and amI, even All of us can be altered in a blink Fire reduces you to nothing Water erodes rocks Cliffs crumble You are not real, Biz It s true Perhaps I am actually the fire Or the sea Perhaps I am every leaping molecule The fire pops, showering sparks A wave crashes And I flip back in a slow somersualt into my body My belly is warm...I m not sure I can, or am qualified to write a review for this beautiful, sad and yet hopeful story of mental illness, and how it can take over a person s life without them realising it, and there are fareloquent reviews out there already All I know is that I loved Biz, wanted the very best for her, wished I could take her in my arms and hug her tight I loved her relationships with both her family, and with Jasper.This book made me laugh, and cry, and it will stay with me for a long time I m not sure I can, or am qualified t...Incredible I read this book slowly, and savored this very touching and honest revelation of what it is like to live with several types of mental disorder The writing was lyrical, poetic and even downright magical at times It was not always easy going I had to put the book down and give my overworked emotions a restthan once But this was so worth the time, energy and emotion that I invested in this wonderful, life changing read.In her Acknowledgement at the end of the book, the autho Incredible I read this book slowly, and savored this very touching and honest revelation of what it is like to live with several types of mental disorder The writing was lyrical, poetic and even downright magical at times It was not always easy going I had to put the book down and give my overworked emotions a restthan once But this was so worth the time, energy and emotion that I invested in this wonderful, life changing read.In her Acknowledgement at the end of the book, the author, Helena Fox, reveals I have lived with mental illness my whole life I carry with me complex PTSD, anxiety disorder, dissociative disorder, and clinical depression I walk with these thin...Yes look okay this hurt my heart and that is all.I am going away for four days and maybe when I get back I will have sense but right now my words are broken like in this book that had weird formatting and long sentencesthat hadno punctuationbut punctured my heart anyway Okay so I ve had my four days of craziness to process this one and I m ready to make a bitsense The metal illness rep here is ridiculously powerful This book could not have been written by someone who has not experience Yes look okay this hurt my heart and that is all.I am going away for four days and maybe when I get back I will have sense but right now my words are broken like in this book that had weird formatting and long sentencesthat hadno punctuationbut punctured my heart anyway Okay so I ve had my four days of craziness to process this one and I m ready to make a bitsense The metal illness rep here is ridiculously powerful This book could not have been written by someone who has not experienced something like what Biz is going through It s heartbreaking, but the way it s told makes it a little hard to follow which is pretty accurate because mental illnesses are heavily misunderstood Even the people experiencing them might not realise what s ha... Grief feels like this an okay day and a good day and an okay day then a badBad that follows and empties you Bad like a sinkhole.This novel follows Biz, a girl whose father died when she was young and she s still going through grief and disassociation during her late teenage years Her father still appears to her in visions that she has and he still speaks to her often The narration is incredibly influenced by how Biz is feeling and I thought that it captured her as an unreliable narrator so Grief feels like this an okay day and a good day and an okay day then a badBad that follows and empties you Bad like a sinkhole.This novel follows Biz, a girl whose father died when she was young and she s still going through grief and disassociation during her late teenage years Her father still appears to her in visions that she has and he still speaks to her often The narration is incredibly influenced by how Biz is feeling and I thought that it captured her as an unreliable narrator so, so well It s hard to explain exactly what this book is, but it s mainly an exploration of Biz trying to bring her father back and trying to deal with the impact his death has left behind on her entire life This is the kind of book that pulls you in and makes you really feel for the characters I think that Biz s narration was amazing her voice is sarcastic and h...

13 November 2017

Helena Fox